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[May. 27th, 2009|01:21 am] |
Always
by Blink 182
I've been here before a few times
And I'm quite aware we're dying
And your hands they shake with goodbyes
And I'll take you back if you'd have me
So here I am, I'm trying
So here I am, are you ready?
Come on let me hold you, touch you, feel you
Always
Kiss you, taste you, all night
Always
And I'll miss your laugh your smile
I'll admit I'm wrong if you'd tell me
I'm so sick of fights I hate them
Let's start this again for real
So here I am, I'm trying
So here I am, are you ready?
So here I am, I'm trying
So here I am, are you ready?
I've been here before a few times
And I'm quite aware we're dying
Come on let me hold you, touch you, feel you
Always
Kiss you, taste you, all night
Always
Always
Always
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[May. 26th, 2009|02:30 am] |
I Wish You Love
by Rachael Yamagata
I wish you bluebirds in the Spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this
I wish you love
And in July, a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health, and more than wealth
I wish you love
My breaking heart and I agree
That you and i can never be
So with my best, my very best
I set you free
I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all, when snowflakes fall
I wish you love
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[May. 25th, 2009|05:33 am] |
Inside Of Love
by Nada Surf
Watching terrible TV
It kills all thoughts
Getting spacier than an astronaut
Making out with people I hardly know or like
I can't believe what I do late at night
I wanna know what its like
On the inside of love
I'm standing at the gates
I see the beauty above
Only when we get to see the aerial view
Will the patterns show
We'll know what to do
I know the last page so well
I can't read the first so I just don't start
Its getting worse
I wanna know what its like
On the inside of love
I'm standing at the gates
I see the beauty above
I wanna know what its like
On the inside of love
Can't find my way in
I try again and again
I'm on the outside of love
Always under or above
I can't find my way in
I try again and again
I'm on the outside of love
Always under or above
Must be a different view
To be a me and you
I wanna know what its like
On the inside of love
Of course I'll be alright
I just had a bad night
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[May. 23rd, 2009|03:25 am] |
For you, a thousand times over.. |
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[May. 23rd, 2009|02:12 am] |
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You Could Be Happy
by Snow Patrol
You could be happy and I won't know
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go
And all the things that I wished I had not said
Are played loops till its madness in my head
Is it too late to remind you how we were
But not our last days of silence, screaming and blur
Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door
You could be happy
I hope you are
You made me happier that I'd been by far
Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment its all not true
Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back
Don't think, just do
More than anything I want to see you, girl
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world
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[May. 22nd, 2009|05:32 am] |
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
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[May. 20th, 2009|12:59 am] |
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Come Back To Me
by David Cook
You say you got to go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you
You say you're leaving as you look away
I know there's really nothing left to say
Just know I'm there whenever you need me
I'll wait for you
Take your time I won't go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you
And I can't get close if you're not there
I can't get inside if there's no soul to bare
I can't fix you
I can't save you
It's something you have to do
So I'll let you go I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you
Come back to me
I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
When you find you
Come back to me
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[May. 17th, 2009|03:47 am] |
I've been dreading blogging for the longest time.. Especially since I became single again, which was about 2 weeks ago.. I guess from the previous blog posts you can probably imagine how well I am taking the break up. I seriously dread blogging here... It brings back so many memories of my relationship with Myles.. Looking back at our relationship now, I find it amazing how fast I let things slide down the slippery slope of neglect and not-giving-a-fuck...
I'm no longer feeling upset or angry about it.. Just really bummed that things turned out the way it did. As much as I'd like to believe that I can just pretend like the past 9 months didn't happen, the more I try not to think about it, the more I do.. Like a song stuck in your head. Its terribly pathetic.. The feeling of losing the person you love the most and not being able to do anything about it.. I just feel like I lost my best friend in the whole world.. And the most fucked up part about it is not being able to tell my best friend what I'm going through because Myles was my best friend..
I packed up all the stuff I ever got from Myles... Tones of letters, clothes, photos, and stupid things we used to exchange.. I put it on top my closet, so I won't ever have to be reminded of the relationship and its demise.. Looking back at his past emails, letters, photos and blog entries.. Reading that stuff, in a vain effort to rekindle the lost feelings of love and tenderness that I so carelessly wasted..
Its not that I don't love him anymore.. Far from it.. I want to love him, but it just seems like right now, I'm not the thing he needs in his life.. I just feel so cheated, screwed over by life, and above all, misjudged.. I don't deny that I did things in the relationship to make him feel unloved, or that I thought our relationship was a sinking ship.. But as I always say, what made you feel cheated is that everything in the past didn't count for anything at all...
I've done many things unworthy of your love, and the more I think about it, the more I feel myself falling back into the person I was before I met you. As strange as it sounds, despite all of that, I still love Myles.. And want him to be a part of my life, and mine a part of his. I wonder if my love for him still means anything to him.. I sure hope so..
"I want to love you, and treat you right.. I want to love you.. Every day and every night..."
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[May. 15th, 2009|01:58 am] |
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[May. 15th, 2009|01:02 am] |
Falling Through
by Once (Kris Allen version)
I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And the games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You'll make it now
Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You'll make it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along
Is there really nothing I can do?
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